In Limbo

So I returned to the hospital on Tuesday, not sure what to hope for in terms of whether they found anything in my blood or not. I went to work the day before. It was hard to get through but I managed.

It was actually really interesting how my coworkers delt with me. Last I checked this illness has caused me to lose about 3-4 KG which is about 6-8 pounds. My face obviosuly looks thinner. Most of my coworkers politly asked me how I was feeling but generally everyone was very respectfull of my privacy, not needing to know all the details of exactly what was wrong. Also no one was oversympathetic making a gigantic deal out of things. At the end of my shift my Manager approached me and asked if it was OK if my boss came with me to the hospital the next day. I felt like they were more concerned about themselves in terms of whether i would be able to work or not as opposed to wanting to help me. These are the kinds of people my bosses are. When I was calling in sick they were always asking me "why" and reminding me i only had 7 sick days as opposed to telling me to feel better or anything. Real nice people. I cant wait to quit. Anyway, after thinking about it I realized it could do no harm. If anything, having a Chinese speaker with me at the hospital would me mutually benefitial, so I agreed.

The next day i went back to the hospital and waited for the big news. Turns out they didnt isolate any bacteria from my blood. So basically they dont know why I had an infection and why there was so much unusual inflamation in my stomach. They gave me 5 more days of antibiotics and told me to come back in a week to do another blood test to see if the antibiotics worked.

So now i am kind of in limbo or purgatory. I am taking my antibiotics and I feel decent enough. I can work, I can run errands, but i still dont feel like going out and having fun. I am probably not going to go on the white water rafting trip I was going to do this weekend. All i can really do is wait these 5 days and then see what happens. Either i get better, or the pain will return. If i get better that'll be great. If not then it poses some very serious questions about what I will do next. Keep your fingers crossed....